Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Life in the Philippines: Taking a Little More Time

Pardon me for not updating, folks.

It seems that it's not that easy to spring back after such deep personal loss. It's not only my Mom's passing that I'm mourning. It seems that I am also feeling the impact of losing my Dad a year ago. I was then so focused on caring for my Mom that perhaps I was not able to give myself enough space to truly feel it.

Being an only child is tough. Even with the full support of my husband and children, I still have the physical sensation of having a hole with a vacuum in my chest and butterflies in my stomach every day. It's hard to learn how to function again while feeling like this but I'm sure I will be back doing what I do soon.

Thank you so much for being here.


sasha said...

It's okay, Maia, take your time. Noone's rushing you naman and we truly understand.

Take care and God bless!

Maia Jose, Manila Mom said...

Thank you so much, Sashing! I really would like us to meet in person one day - when I'm no longer a wreck.

Zahra said...

Hello, my name's Zahra and it's my first time on your blog. I got here through browsing Your post touched me and I just wanted to write that I'm sorry for your loss. I know it hard to deal with but I hope it gets easier for you. May they rest in peace.

Maia Jose, Manila Mom said...

Thank you so much, Zahra! I have promised to try and do a little more of my usual routine each day. I've been surfing and finding new and lovely blogs such as yours helps brighten my day. I think you and my daughter will hit it off, having the same interests Her blog is at The CityLifeStylist.

Zahra said...

Thank you for visiting my blog. Yes, I've actually got your daughter's blog on my feeds! Haha! What a small small world it turned out to be :) Thank you for your kind words.

JohnnyO said...

Thanks for being open about your pain. Interesting enough, I lost my Dad almost 20 years ago and there are times that I miss him very much. What I am saying is that this is normal, your parents are always a part of you & others like you are behind you. Not sure how I got to your blog - but I enjoyed reading - keep writing!

Maia Jose, Manila Mom said...

Thank you,JohnnyO.

A friend who lost her Mom two years ago told me the same thing - that the feeling may diminish but it will never really go away. A part of us will always be pining for our parents after they leave,no matter what age we are.

What makes it more difficult in my case is that they have always been part of our day to day life. I am still slowly learning how to face each day without their physical presence.

It is a comfort to hear from others who have gone through the same experience.

I must also congratulate you for your blog. Your Dad must be so proud of what a great Dad you are to your own children.

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